“I have only two emotions, careful fear and dead devotion.”
The National
It’s Friday night and you’re all alone on your own
You wished good night to my washed out self and shut your bedroom door
And as I write this song for you
I just hope that dreams are treating you well
Like a heartfelt friend
You never thought you’d haveAre you walking towards the shadowy grove on the top of the broccoli hills?
Where the prayer flags hang strung between the two ancient trees
And the breeze blows Ahimsa hymn
Honoring your spotless mind
Leaving the world behind
Being a friendOr are you running from the ghost fearing of becoming one?
Only to find me crying on your funeral as the choir sings a farewell song?
And tonight you’ll be dancing at the ball
Tomorrow you’ll be a picture on the wall
And wherever you decide to run
You’ll never run aloneWriter(s): Ichabod
Album: Psychedelic Chansons, Vol. 1
Released: 2019
Gold light breaks behind the houses
I don’t see what’s strange about this.
Tiny bubbles hang above me.
It’s a sign that someone loves me.
I can hardly stand up right
I hit my head upon the light
I have faith but don’t believe it
It’s not there enough to leave it.Everything I love is on the table.
Everything I love is out to sea.I have only two emotions,
Careful fear and dead devotion.
I can’t get the balance right.
With all my marbles in the fight.
I see all the ones I went for
All the things I had it in for
I won’t cry until I hear
Because I was not supposed to be here.Everything I love is on the table.
Everything I love is out to sea.
I’m not alone,
I’ll never be.
And to the bone,
I’m evergreen.I’m tired, I’m freezing, I’m dumb
When it gets so late I forget everyone.
I need somewhere to stay.
Don’t think anybody I know is awake.
Calm down, it’s all right,
Keep my arms the rest of the night.
When they ask what do I see,
I say a bright white beautiful heaven hangin’ over me.I’m not alone,
I’ll never be.
And to the bone
I’m evergreen.
And if you want (dead seriously)
To see me cry (don’t swallow the cap)
Play “Let It Be” (pat yourself on the back)
Or “Nevermind” (dead seriously)Is it time to leave? Is it time to think about
What I wanna say to the girls at the door.
I need somewhere to be
But I can’t get around the river in front of me.
Calm down, it’s all right,
Keep my arms the rest of the night.
When they ask what do I see,
I say a bright white beautiful heaven hangin’ over me.I’m not alone, (dead seriously)
I’ll never be. (don’t swallow the cap)
And to the bone (Pat yourself on the back)
I’m evergreen (Dead seriously)
And if you want (dead seriously)
To see me cry (don’t swallow the cap)
Play “Let It Be” (pat yourself on the back)
Or “Nevermind” (dead seriously)Writer(s): Dessner Aaron Brooking, Berninger Matthew Donald, Dessner Bryce David
Album: Trouble Will Find Me
Released: 2013
Dangerous, I must confess
I hold my tongue, I hold my breath
Another night, a long dark road
With miles and miles and miles to go
A raging hollow emptiness I feel
The night is cold and I’m alone
Come and take the wheelBecause you, you’ve seen me in my cage
Cursed, I’ve been betrayed
All the night I’ve lost my wayAnd I feel so wild and lonely
Don’t you want to save me?
Don’t you want to stone me?
Hey yeah, ohIf I could, and I know I should
I’d be over this, I’d be understood
A howling moon and an ancient song
I’ve got miles and miles to go till dawn
An angry craving seeps into my skin
It’s all too much, I need to touch you once againBecause you, you’ve seen me in my cage
Cursed, I’ve been betrayed
All the night I’ve lost my wayAnd I feel so wild and lonely
Don’t you want to save me?
Don’t you want to stone me?
Don’t you want to save me?I feel so wild and lonely
Don’t you want to steal me?
Don’t you want to own me?
(Come on)
Don’t you want to drive me?
Drive me on a highway?
Don’t you want to save me?
Don’t you want to stone me?Wild and lonely, oh
Wild and lonely, come on, come on
Save me
Don’t you want to stone me?
Wild and lonely, ohWriter(s): Melissa Etheridge
Album: The Medicine Show
Released: 2019
Alone alone alone
Guess it’s what I am
Without you
So evident again
Stressing the emptiness
Is what I’ll do today
And if I starve from this task
I’ll regain my strength and have a drink to smoke through all the hallways that lead me nowhere
I’ll think of your eyes, can i?
And how it feels so right
Without this terror of freedom of mine
Where I can not bear all the judgements I’m spared
And once again I’ll end up in shame alone
Alone alone aloneWriter(s): Ana Ćurčin
Album: Sketches of Belonging
Released: 2016
[Instrumental]
Artist: Ólafur Arnalds
Released: 2017
You decide to be alone
And hell it’s cold enough to hibernate
So let her drift into the snow
It’s where she chooses how to operate
It might be time to pack her in
Set the sails and just get all the way
Maybe east or something
The west was overrated anyway
And the storms coming down
These old walls are wearing thin
There’s an ache to this town
And something’s gotta give in
When digging for gold, and coming
Out dry
Just a matter of time
Just a matter of timeSo you decide to be alone
And sometimes lonelinessCan be your friend
So let me drift into the snow
It’s where I’m tempted most to make amend
We can wash our hands of all of this
And we can hide behind shit eating grins
It’s probably something I missed
I wasn’t listening when I should have been
And the storm’s coming down
And these old walls are wearing thin
There’s an ache to this town
And something’s gotta give in
When digging for gold
And coming out dry
Just a matter of time
Just a matter of timeWriter(s): Daniel Elisha Mangan, Dan Mangan
Album: Nice, Nice, Very Nice
Released: 2009
Well this is easier now
I found all the pieces I lost in the flood
And it wasn’t that much
And though it’s easier now
I will always remember the night that I almost drowned
All alone in a houseAnd the love that I lost
With all of the shit that came out in the wash
Just a pocket of fluff
I’m not put upon
I am free of from disease no greys, no liver-spots
Most of the misery’s gone… gone, gone to the boneI’m not miserable now
No one knows
No one knows
I’m not miserableSo the hymns that I sung
Prayers for the fucked, from a bitter, forked tongue
Sing of history now
Though the corners are lit
The dark can return with the flick of a switch
It hasn’t turned on me yet, yetI’m not miserable now
No one knows
No one knowsI’m not miserable now
No one knows
No one knows
I’m not miserableWriter(s): Frightened Rabbit, Scott Hutchison
Album: The Winter of Mixed Drinks
Released: 2010
Daylight turns to moonlight – and I’m at my best
Praising the way it all works – gazing upon the rest
The cool before the warm
The calm after the storm
The cool before the warm
The calm after the storm
I wish to stay forever – letting this be my food
But I’m caught up in a whirlwind and my ever changing moods
Bitter turns to sugar – some call a passive tune
But the day things turn sweet – for me won’t be too soon
The hush before the silence
The winds after the blast
The hush before the silence
The winds after the blast
I wish we’d move together – this time the bosses sued
But we’re caught up in the wilderness and an ever changing mood
Teardrops turn to children – who’ve never had the time
To commit the sins they pay for through – another’s evil mind
The love after the hate
The love we leave too late
The love after the hate
The love we leave too late
I wish we’d wake up one day – an’ everyone feel moved
But we’re caught up in the dailies and an ever changing moodEvil turns to statues
and masses form a line
But I know which way I’d run to if the choice was mine
The past is knowledge
the present our mistake
And the future we always leave too late
I wish we’d come to our senses and see there is no truth
In those who promote the confusion for this ever changing moodWriter(s): Paul John Weller
Album: Café Bleu
Released: 1984
Times were though love was not enough
So you said sorry Johnny I’m gone gone gone
You said my act was funny
But we both knew what was missing honey
So you lit out on your own
Now that pretty form that you’ve got baby
Will make sure you get along
But you’re gonna find out some day honeyWhen you’re alone you’re alone
When you’re alone you’re alone
When you’re alone you’re alone
When you’re alone you ain’t nothing but aloneNow I was young and pretty on the mean streets of the city
And I fought to make ’em my home
With just the shirt on my back I left and swore I’d never look back
And man I was gone gone gone
But there’s things that’ll knock you down you don’t even see coming
And send you crawling like a baby back home
You’re gonna find out that day sugarWhen you’re alone you’re alone
When you’re alone you’re alone
When you’re alone you’re alone
When you’re alone you ain’t nothing but aloneI knew some day your runnin’ would be through
And you’d think back on me and you
And your love would be strong
You’d forget all about the bad and think only of all the laughs that we had
And you’d wanna come home
Now it ain’t hard feelings or nothin’ sugar
That ain’t what’s got me singing this song
It’s just nobody knows honey where love goes
But when it goes it’s gone goneWhen you’re alone you’re alone
When you’re alone you’re alone
When you’re alone you’re alone
When you’re alone you ain’t nothing but aloneWriter(s): Bruce Springsteen
Album: Tunnel of Love
Released: 1987
[Instrumental]
Album: Train Leaves at Eight
Released: 2000
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